Taking a Break - Cats in My Closet
Personal

Taking a Break

I’m currently going to take a break from posting on virtually all social media outlets. Ever since graduating college, I’ve felt nothing but useless and unaccomplished. I know it isn’t healthy, but I haven’t been able to nip this depression in the bud. I can’t find a big-girl job, I hate what I got my degree in, I’m struggling with money due to loans, and I feel like I’m losing myself with my emotions. I’m getting those feelings of “I’m not good enough” like I used to get back in middle school, and I can’t pinpoint why these thoughts have resurfaced, and in such a drastically destructive manner.

I think I just need to take a break from the internet for a while. I know it will probably lead people to unfollow me, but it’s what I need to do, and I understand if that’s the case. I need to get my head on straight: I need to reassess life decisions, figure out what I DO want to do with my life. What am I good at? What would I be happy doing? What do I ultimately want out of life? What are some new things I can try?

I also need to take some time to rekindle my personal style that’s been lost in this cloudy-days phase. I need to find the spark that got my creative mind thinking, not just in my outfits, but in DIY and, most specifically, in my writing. I think I’m having an existential crisis, and it’s causing me to mentally deteriorate.

Lastly, I need to find design elements of my blog that really represent who I am. I spent too much time looking at other blogs for inspiration which led me to be really confused about how to make my own blog, leaving MDG a jumbled, fuddled mess. I committed the ultimate fallacy of blogging: Not being me. I started blogging too early without the right equipment, without having enough spare time, and without organizing my ideas enough to be cohesively put onto the page. For all of these things, my readers, I’m sorry. I feel as though I’ve kind of cheated you out of who I am simply due to the constraints of time and mental health. If anything, there’s been a brief, subdued version of myself presented, and that’s not what I want out of MDG.

I promise that once I figure these things out, I will be back and blogging, because blogging is one thing I feel passionately about. The blogging community fascinates me, and I admire my favorite bloggers probably more than other people admire celebrities. To think that people are lucky enough to take a glimpse into one person’s life, to understand that person as your everyday citizen yet also as something more, and form an almost immediate connection–all through reading and scrolling through pictures. I want to join this community properly, and I have a whole (disorganized) notebook dedicated to post ideas that I can’t wait to put into action. First and foremost, though, I’ve got to get my life in order.

Thank you so much for understanding, and I hope to return as the version of myself that I grew to love throughout my years in university. I will overcome this dark period in my life and come out an even stronger and happier person.

Love, KiKi

Older
Newer
  • Montenab
    April 30, 2022 at 5:21 am

    ed dysfunction

  • JeffreyDisee
    May 5, 2022 at 3:31 am

    cialis commercial bathtub cialis and dapoxetine viagra vs cialis

  • JeffreyDisee
    May 5, 2022 at 7:58 pm

    ivermectin pour on dosage for goats ivermectin for people what is ivermectin used for

  • JeffreyDisee
    May 6, 2022 at 10:39 am

    cialis softabs online cialis 20 mg best price buy original cialis 10 mg

  • JeffreyDisee
    May 6, 2022 at 10:48 pm

    ivermectin (stromectol). gapeworm ivermectin ivermectin how to buy

  • JeffreyDisee
    May 7, 2022 at 8:05 pm

    over the counter prednisone pills order prednisone prednisone 20mg online without prescription

  • JeffreyDisee
    May 8, 2022 at 11:22 am

    ivermectin cream over the counter jama ivermectin stromectol australia

  • JeffreyDisee
    May 8, 2022 at 11:51 pm

    male dysfunction pills canadian pharmacy online prescription for ed meds

  • JeffreyDisee
    May 9, 2022 at 12:21 pm

    prednisone 2.5 tablet order prednisone how to buy prednisone

  • RogerBus
    May 11, 2022 at 1:35 am

    propecia 1mg tablets propecia without prescription buy propecia without a prescription

  • RogerBus
    May 11, 2022 at 5:54 pm

    ivermectin tablets for humans over the counter stromectol price usa ivermectin 1mg

  • RogerBus
    May 12, 2022 at 12:13 pm

    buy prescription drugs from canada cheap buy prescription drugs without doctor how can i order prescription drugs without a doctor

  • RogerBus
    May 13, 2022 at 2:03 am

    ivermectin dosage for covid how long for ivermectin to work ivermectin for sale for humans

  • RogerBus
    May 13, 2022 at 5:22 pm

    stromectol order online oral ivermectin for sarcoptic mange ivermectin goat

  • RogerBus
    May 14, 2022 at 8:25 am

    prescription drugs best canadian pharmacy online best online canadian pharmacy

  • RogerBus
    May 14, 2022 at 11:27 pm

    medications for ed best treatment for ed new ed treatments

  • RogerBus
    May 15, 2022 at 12:06 pm

    buy propecia 5mg finasteride hair propecia proscar

  • NormanKic
    May 16, 2022 at 5:03 am

    stromectol without a doctor prescription stromectol 12 mg tablets stromectol for humans for sale

  • NormanKic
    May 16, 2022 at 8:06 pm

    buy ed pills buying ed pills online cheapest ed pills online

  • NormanKic
    May 17, 2022 at 11:21 am

    buy prescription online from india trusted india online pharmacies legitimate online pharmacies india

  • NormanKic
    May 18, 2022 at 1:27 am

    ed drugs list generic ed drugs top ed pills

  • dvzbsgfg
    May 18, 2022 at 2:21 am

    order provigil 100mg online buy provigil order modafinil 100mg

  • wtguxaiq
    May 18, 2022 at 7:55 am

    buy provigil 100mg generic provigil price

  • NormanKic
    May 18, 2022 at 5:01 pm

    buy stromectol online stromectol for sale stromectol for sale

  • qtryvusb
    May 18, 2022 at 6:30 pm

    modafinil 200mg cost purchase provigil generic buy provigil 100mg sale

  • JohnnyCok
    May 19, 2022 at 2:24 am

    where to buy liquid cialis cialis 20mg buy tadalafil online

  • zscixegk
    May 19, 2022 at 11:51 am

    cheap provigil buy modafinil 100mg generic modafinil medication

  • JohnnyCok
    May 19, 2022 at 6:23 pm

    buy tadalafil online lowest price tadalafil lowest price tadalafil

  • qzyafebe
    May 20, 2022 at 12:52 am

    buy provigil 200mg for sale oral modafinil 100mg

  • vodghgvl
    May 20, 2022 at 6:51 am

    buy provigil 100mg sale modafinil 200mg without prescription provigil online

  • JohnnyCok
    May 20, 2022 at 9:33 am

    stromectol price usa stromectol without a doctor prescription stromectol for humans for sale

  • nroafbgf
    May 20, 2022 at 6:48 pm

    generic provigil 100mg cheap modafinil 200mg

  • blotqqhv
    May 20, 2022 at 11:59 pm

    brand modafinil 200mg

  • JohnnyCok
    May 21, 2022 at 12:55 am

    sildenafil citrate tablets 100 mg viagra where to buy viagra tablets for men

  • lndogfkq
    May 21, 2022 at 3:25 am

    erythromycin base 250mg

  • jxqlvyas
    May 21, 2022 at 2:52 pm

    buy provigil 100mg sale

  • JohnnyCok
    May 21, 2022 at 3:54 pm

    clomid tablets for sale clomid tablets for sale buy clomid 50mg

  • cgnpcjrd
    May 22, 2022 at 6:35 am

    modafinil 200mg ca order provigil sale modafinil 100mg usa

  • JohnnyCok
    May 22, 2022 at 6:43 am

    cialis pills cialis price of cialis 20 mg

  • qpxviucp
    May 22, 2022 at 1:15 pm

    modafinil medication generic modafinil 200mg

  • JohnnyCok
    May 22, 2022 at 7:34 pm

    stromectol without a doctor prescription stromectol price usa stromectol for humans for sale

  • Eddiewrele
    May 22, 2022 at 11:54 pm

    stromectol for sale does ivermectin kill hookworms stromectol for sale

  • suctyoui
    May 23, 2022 at 6:46 am

    modafinil 100mg brand

  • Eddiewrele
    May 23, 2022 at 5:29 pm

    ivermectin rx order ivermectin online buy ivermectin pill

  • Eddiewrele
    May 24, 2022 at 7:56 am

    stromectol tablets for humans peru ivermectin stromectol 6 mg tablet